Today, me and my sister have medical check up on her physical nerve.
Because I thought she was on physical nerve so I go check on her physical nerve. And as I thought, she was in nerve problem.
Before check upshe was completely unsmiling and she was like DEAD. Like they say in the virtual world, her virtual friends say that she was not her. yes, I agree with you. She hundred percent wasn't her. Even she greet a person, like "hi" only. Sometimes she don't even greet people at all. And that makes people look through her thought she was SICK. No, she's not sick, just her physical nerve sick. Something has just block her nerve. Not only she was in virtual life she was act like that, IRL too.
When check upAll day me and she went to check up. Mr. XXX helps me since I was his bestfriend.
He told me everything about the physical things. Lucky me. SO we check up, and he ask her to sleep and he ask her "what's bother on your mind?". Firstly, she didn't answer. but a few second.. "Even is something bother on my mind, no one gonna comfort me."
Mr.XXX: "Your sister always there for you, but why you say no one comfort you?"
Alissa: "because she's already not by my side" her tears fall
Mr.XXX: "Doesn't no one will comfort you"
Alissa: "If is, why everyone wouldn't tell me that they care me" she cried more. "not even a word are you ok , not even a message, not even a greeting , no even a nice talk.. all I receive was a complaint that something wrong with me or they will say is was not me.."
Mr.XXX: "Are you lonely?"
Alissa: "Yes"
Mr.XXX: "Where you were that time?"
Alissa: "At doll sanctuary"
Mr.XXX: "What do you do at there?"
Alissa: "I'm chating with them and have a talk."
Mr.XXX: "Do you have a nice talk?"
Alissa: "If is a talk, all was a formal talk."
Mr.XXX: "Do you like it?"
Alissa: "No, I don't."
Mr.XXX: "Then why don't you tell them you don't like to talk like that?"
Alissa: "because they usually talk like that."
Mr.XXX: "Do you feel happy to talk like that?"
Alissa: "I never like to talk like that. I'm not their below rank. Even so I am." she's now in calm mood "even it is, they never treat me like a family or neither a friend."
Mr.XXX: "You feel that?"
Alissa: "Yes."
Mr.XXX: "Who was them?"
Alissa: "They were nice people, who I ever treat them cruelly before. Now, they are a higher rank than me, so it's time to get them time to treat me cruelly." weird, she smile. "I actually so happy indeed so sad in the same time."
Mr.XXX: "Why?"
Alissa: "I'm happy, because they already a successful doll. I'm sad, because maybe they wouldn't treat me like a friend, instead like a child."
Mr.XXX: "Then why don't you talk back? You always do that."
Alissa: "That one is the biggest mistake in my whole life. So I never want to talk back when they are in conservation on me.I did rather spamming than talk back"
Mr.XXX: "We know you are bad tempered, why don't you blast it off?"
Alissa: "I don't want to get argue with doll just for small matters, Michiyo will be worried about me"
Mr.XXX: "Now, you can calmly sleep, thinking about piggy is flying on the air." and the doctor snap his finger.
As what the doctor tell me, she has physical nerve feelings and stress. Doctor says that
she can't receive any advice or any complaint cause she would thought that would be a stress. She usually needs a support, as for support makes her feel better. She mostly thinking negative because she easily being hurt even it is a small slice of knife cutting her face. And the forceful part is, she control her owns tempered without siblings or people truly care for her and it's make her want keep the stressful feeling a secret. I repeat again, she don't want to have advice and complaint. All she wants are
Support.If they were people want to complaint about this, now do tell me.. Why do you want to do that? If you don't like my sister, you can direct tell her OR me. I obviously rushing her business, because I care for her. She is only thing that I worried for whole this life because never want to tell her true feelings.
After Check up, I'm not allowed her to online but she keeps walk into computer room. So for now, she usually lies on bed and calmly sleep for few days.
